Truth is, I don't know anything. I don't know what I'm doing here or where I'm going. Truth is, I never knew. One thing in life that I'm afraid of is never finding out. I want the world to stop spinning for awhile so I can catch up. I don't need to get ahead just yet, I just want to be where everything doesn't feel so overwhelming. I'm afraid I've fallen so far behind, that I'll never catch up, that there's no hope left. I feel so melodramatic, but to me this all feels so impossible. I've been isolating myself from reality for so long, rejoining the real world feels like a chore. And nobody likes chores.